Aw, hell.  I shouldn’t have sent that e-mail.  Dammit, he’s gonna read it at, like, 2-3:00 in the morning and think "OMG WTFH?  O.O;" 

If you can’t tell, I just sent my crush an e-mail.  Asking him out, more or less.  OMFG.  Terrified is an understatement.  I can’t believe I just did that.  Our friendship’s gonna disappear real fast when he reads it, I can already tell.  T.T  Just like between me and Matthias, we’re gonna end up not seeing each other anymore, or even hearing from each other.  Our friendship’s gonna deteriorate until it disappears, all because of that god-damned e-mail.  Fuck.  Fuck fuck fuck!

I’m scared to death now.  I’m gonna go do something else to distract me...O___O;;;